What would be enough?

So, I know the story. I know the drill. I have the words, basically. I have an idea of the point I'm trying to get across. I KNOW this stuff. But do I?

First, God gives me a tiny inkling of what I've got to speak. It scares me to death, but he gives me Ezekiel 33 to make sure I understand that it's imperative. The whole watchman business. UGH!

Then, the message gets more intense, more out there, more crazy-tin-foil-hat-ish. Believe me, I'm fighting this one tooth and nail. What is God's reply? Ezekiel 2:3-7. Speak even though it'll be like your among scorpians. Speak regardless of whether or not there are ears listening. WHAT??? How does that help??

Fine. But why does it have to be this craziness? Sure, I believe you, Lord, duh, but I'm already half-crazy anyway. Normal people are not going to take this stuff seriously! What is His answer to all of this?

You think this stuff is crazy talk, I'll show you what's crazy. The whitewash my people are believing. Comfy cozy, safe, no real effort required...God is love love love...but He ain't SOFT. Everything has a shiny coat of love over top of rubbish. My people are standing on shoddy feet, content with half-way. That is crazy.

Good point, God, good point. I agree. However...I can't argue with you, but I will certainly try to. I speak this, and 2% listen. Fantastic. Heaven has a party. The other 98% fiddles around in denial, and then we watch them jump off a cliff into total destruction. Do I like that scenario? No. Obviously not. But...but...but...not my business. Your business. I get it.

Well, I'm sorry. But apparently I've got a long way to go, here, Lord. Do I want patience? Or do I just want to get it over with? I don't know. You tell me, Lord. Give me more Ezekiel bits that I can't argue with. Clarity. Assuredness. Power from You. I am not who You think I am, even though I am. What a way we have to go.