conspiracy nutballs

I admit, one of my guilty pleasures is watching the crazy/silly conspiracy videos on youtube. Ever see any of it? The world is going to end in 2012 according to the Mayan calendar, the nephilim, aka, the children of the fallen angels and first women of earth, will be returning to our planet from some other planet that they were on, let's see, what else...oh yeah, the poles are going to shift, there are secret reptile people that like to eat humans, and they can shape-shift into humans and live among us, and George W. Bush is one of these said reptile people, or he is a devil-worshipper, and he is related to the British monarchy and all the other world elite.

Yeah, see how fun this all is? Now, some of it really freaks me out, and I have to remember that God is in control of all things. I repeat Isaiah 40:10 Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not despair, for I am your God. Yeah. So, while I don't believe most of the junkola that I watch, I do think there is a grain of truth in some of it. What that grain is, heck, I dunno. I'm not too naive, however, to NOT believe that the actual devil is working in this world in some hideous, disgustingly scary and abhorrent ways. This world is Whacked Out. Period. So I am prepared for anything, ya'll. I actually look forward to this nation on breakdown- no more electricity or computers or anything (come on, it wouldn't be that bad- think of the positives- would you give up your cell phone, wii, whatever else, if it meant all your credit card debt - heck, ALL your debt was wiped out? No more records of it?? Yeah baby!!! )

So, there we go. I'm not a crazy conspiracy person, but I do enjoy hearing about them, kind of like a person that strains their neck to see the carnage from a highway accident. I guess.

Am I hearing you, Lord??

It's always been said that the Lord speaks softly, so you really have to listen. Well, unfortunately, I am the type of person that has a very active mind. If there was a type of hyperactivity disorder that affected just your brain, like, just your thoughts and the speed at which you think them, well, that's me. Maybe there is an actual disorder like that. I don't know. I do know that my thoughts run through my head faster than Barry Allen. I can hardly keep up.

That said, I have a problem. When I pray and ask for an answer, or direction, or guidance- my head is so full of...everything that I can't discern what is God and what is me. It is highly frustrating, particularly because I don't want to do anything that might hinder God's plan. Just writing that sentence is funny to me, because, of course, little old me ain't gonna do nothin' to hinder God's plans, He's got is all covered, for sure. It's just, I DO want to be part of it, I do want to do my part! I want to be in His will! I just have to figure out where I supposed to be.

So, yeah. Lets figure that out.