The difference between what I feel and what I believe

I'm a girl. Therefore, my emotions are quite strong and are usually what lead me to action. In some instances, this is good, but in other situations, this is very bad.

When it comes to God and the Bible and my faith, I understand the differences between why I feel the way I feel and why I believe what I believe. For instance, I feel very strongly about child pornographers and pedophiles and the like. I want to castrate them and then strangle them with their own dismembered body part. I feel that they should be punished to the fullest extent of any punishment- forget the law. Drag them into the street and pull them apart limb from limb. Let them feel utter terror and helplessness and pain. LET THEM!! Now, that's how I feel. How does God feel? Well, there's no doubt he hates what is going on. He HATES it so much that he has planned a punishment for those who don't repent, (Change the way they THINK and ACT) and ask Jesus to bear their sin. The difference between what I feel and what God's will for these people is quite simple. He loves them- these putrid, horrible people, he actually loves them, as much as he loves anyone else. He really does. He does not like what they are doing, and he is aching for them to turn from it and scoop them up and give them all the grace they need. Sometimes, I admit, I hope they don't repent, and they get punished. It's as if I don't believe Jesus' sacrifice can cover that horrible, horrible sin they've committed. Whether I feel that it should or not, it CAN.

Another way I feel is this: gay marriage is wrong according to God, however, how do I feel about the whole thing, that's another story. I love being married, and I love my husband like crazy. Life without him would not be life at all. I am committed to him in the same way that I am committed to Christ. For it is through Christ that I am committed to my husband so strongly. I love Jesus, therfore I love my husband like mad!! I understand the feeling of love quite well, thank you. I would not try to take it from anyone, ever. To tell someone to stop loving another person- well, that's not only futile, it's cruel and stupid.

There is a fine line between love and lust- whether or not you feel there is a fine line or not, there is one. Because if you truly love someone, sex isn't going to come into the picture, or it can at least be completely taken out of the picture, and the love will still be there. It's not the loving someone that God is commanding us to abstain from. It's the sex. If two people of the same sex truly love each other and live together and create a life together- where is the harm in that?? There is none. The harm comes from sex. That is where all the problems lie. Specifically, careless sex- and that exists in both homo- and hetero-sexual people. So, to single out the gay community as being immoral simply because their adulterous pre-marital sex is with someone of the same gender, that's just hypocritical. Any sex outside of marriage is adultery, and gay marriage, according to the Bible and it's specific terms of marriage, is not possible- regardless of how we FEEL about it.

So, why do people get all in a tizzy over gay marriage? Well, I have an inkling, a pretty good one, actually, being on the inside of the fundamental Christian side. God gets pretty specific when he talks about what marriage means, as I said before. Marriage is for His glory and only His glory. We've been mistaken in thinking it was for OUR happily ever after. Sure, that is a part of it, but not the MAIN part. Because of the way marriage was created, and because sex was created for within the specific boundaries of marriage, anything that does not follow God's original plan just doesn't fly. We may not like it, being the human-minded, well, humans that we are, but Truth is Truth is Truth. We'll all get it one day, but for now, we'll either believe it, regardless of how we FEEL, or we'll rebel against it and do what we want.

I would just like those folks screaming against gay marriage to realize what they sound like. And I would also like those folks who are for gay marriage to realize what those other folks are screaming about. Christians should not be out to condemn anyone. Our job is to let people know God's wonderful and beautiful gift of Jesus Christ. Once we've spoken that truth, it's up to God. OUR next duty is to LOVE and BLESS. And Christ is not specific about WHO- so we are to LOVE and BLESS everyone, regardless of what they choose to believe or feel. And that is the Truth.